Mmk. In a thread I opened a couple months ago, I talked about how I couldn't see myself staying with the same person for the rest of my life. Growing old together and whatnot. The man that I was talking about in that thread...
Well, he's coming. He lives in England, I live in the USA. He won't give me the exact date, but it's before my 22nd birthday, which is in January. I would be ecstatic, except for two things:
1) I still don't know how I feel about that kind of commitment
and
2) I think I'm in love with someone else.
I still love J, really I do. He's been there for me online for 5 years, through the worst of my teen years, always telling me how brilliant I am when I felt like the world wished I had never been born. He'll always be special to me for that.
The other man, I'll call him GIATZ, (I mentioned him in the Dear...thread once or twice...) is amazing. He's so handsome and charming and intelligent and challenging, and I talk to him way more than I do J. They say that the biggest predictor of romance is familiarity and, well...
I don't think, even without J, that GIATZ and I would ever be a couple. But should I tell J about him? If so, should I tell him before or after he's already here?
Well, he's coming. He lives in England, I live in the USA. He won't give me the exact date, but it's before my 22nd birthday, which is in January. I would be ecstatic, except for two things:
1) I still don't know how I feel about that kind of commitment
and
2) I think I'm in love with someone else.
I still love J, really I do. He's been there for me online for 5 years, through the worst of my teen years, always telling me how brilliant I am when I felt like the world wished I had never been born. He'll always be special to me for that.
The other man, I'll call him GIATZ, (I mentioned him in the Dear...thread once or twice...) is amazing. He's so handsome and charming and intelligent and challenging, and I talk to him way more than I do J. They say that the biggest predictor of romance is familiarity and, well...
I don't think, even without J, that GIATZ and I would ever be a couple. But should I tell J about him? If so, should I tell him before or after he's already here?
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