I think I'm at a serious relationship crossroad here.
You guys may or may not remember my thread about my wife having a heart attack. What I didn't say then is that we had a brief argument about whether or not she really was, as I didn't recognize the symptoms.
Unfortunately since then, things have taken a turn for the worse, IMHO. I feel that I've lost a lot of intimacy from her, and that she only tolerates my presence at home. I feel that the things I do at home are not good enough for her. She expects me to keep saying positive, supportive things about her, and yet I feel I hardly get the same in return.
A couple of months ago, she told me that she, a friend of hers here and her mother were going to Missouri to visit an old friend of hers, and said she didn't want me to go, because I couldn't contribute anything, money-wise. (Like devoting nearly 2/3 of my income to the car payment isn't enough? ) I was extremely hurt, to make an understatement.
It was then that I found myself talking to another woman on a chat program. One thing led to another, and, bottom line, she made me feel good about myself again, and we have fallen hard for each other. I know, some of you are gonna think I'm a dog for doing this, but I honestly didn't expect something like this to happen.
And then the shit hit the fan....
This past Tuesday, wife asked me who I was chatting with. I told her it was a friend (which is the truth, as far as it goes.), that I would cut off communications with her. Then last night, I hear from my online friend's (for lack of a better word) sister, that she was in the hospital. I know I shouldn't but I felt extremely guilty.
My dilemma is thus: I want more than anything to be with this other woman, but also to be with my wife. I seriously need to figure out who it is I really want. Any advice that can be offered is welcome.
A very confused
Dendawg
P.S. No cautionary tales about online dating please. That kind of debate is better suited for fratching, IMHO, and is beside the point of what I'm going thru here.
You guys may or may not remember my thread about my wife having a heart attack. What I didn't say then is that we had a brief argument about whether or not she really was, as I didn't recognize the symptoms.
Unfortunately since then, things have taken a turn for the worse, IMHO. I feel that I've lost a lot of intimacy from her, and that she only tolerates my presence at home. I feel that the things I do at home are not good enough for her. She expects me to keep saying positive, supportive things about her, and yet I feel I hardly get the same in return.
A couple of months ago, she told me that she, a friend of hers here and her mother were going to Missouri to visit an old friend of hers, and said she didn't want me to go, because I couldn't contribute anything, money-wise. (Like devoting nearly 2/3 of my income to the car payment isn't enough? ) I was extremely hurt, to make an understatement.
It was then that I found myself talking to another woman on a chat program. One thing led to another, and, bottom line, she made me feel good about myself again, and we have fallen hard for each other. I know, some of you are gonna think I'm a dog for doing this, but I honestly didn't expect something like this to happen.
And then the shit hit the fan....
This past Tuesday, wife asked me who I was chatting with. I told her it was a friend (which is the truth, as far as it goes.), that I would cut off communications with her. Then last night, I hear from my online friend's (for lack of a better word) sister, that she was in the hospital. I know I shouldn't but I felt extremely guilty.
My dilemma is thus: I want more than anything to be with this other woman, but also to be with my wife. I seriously need to figure out who it is I really want. Any advice that can be offered is welcome.
A very confused
Dendawg
P.S. No cautionary tales about online dating please. That kind of debate is better suited for fratching, IMHO, and is beside the point of what I'm going thru here.
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