Well...yesterday was the funeral. If you don't have a clue what I am talking about, it was in Tales of the Gentle Giant..but of course there is more. First the rest of the week.
First work wanted me to work 21 days in a row. Swing shift also. Meant I would be working 1st, 2nd, and 3rd shifts (different days) and sometimes get maybe 8 hrs between shifts. Maybe. Was NOT a happy camper. Ended up solving that, but week was not over by a long shot.
Suffered chronic foot in mouth disease all week, depression, and a LOT of self doubt. Not to mention having my father go into one of his rants on how useless, worthless, and stupid I am, but that is another story.
In class we had a quiz, and I blanked. Flunked it because my mind was on the funeral I couldn't attend (I will repost the story here, don't worry. I am getting to that).
Now the funeral, for those who missed it in Tales of The Gentle Giant.
Had a good lifelong friend die in an accident, was told about it by somebody else. Make a long story short she was like a sister to me, and one time I got in her husbands face about hitting her. Well..I was not welcome at the funeral yesterday because the husband doesn't much like me. Since I refused to dishonor her memory by causing a scene..I didn't go. My contact there will tell me where she is buried, and I will wait and go say my goodbyes there.
It was a hard day today though. Worse I have experienced in a long time. Didn't sleep, couldn't eat.. I can fake happy or 'normal' I've gotten good at it. So most people probably didn't even realize. I am nowhere near ok, and I probably won't be for a bit.
I do want to thank those who have pm and texted me. They helped keep me sane, or at least a bit. You know who you are *hugs to them*
First work wanted me to work 21 days in a row. Swing shift also. Meant I would be working 1st, 2nd, and 3rd shifts (different days) and sometimes get maybe 8 hrs between shifts. Maybe. Was NOT a happy camper. Ended up solving that, but week was not over by a long shot.
Suffered chronic foot in mouth disease all week, depression, and a LOT of self doubt. Not to mention having my father go into one of his rants on how useless, worthless, and stupid I am, but that is another story.
In class we had a quiz, and I blanked. Flunked it because my mind was on the funeral I couldn't attend (I will repost the story here, don't worry. I am getting to that).
Now the funeral, for those who missed it in Tales of The Gentle Giant.
Had a good lifelong friend die in an accident, was told about it by somebody else. Make a long story short she was like a sister to me, and one time I got in her husbands face about hitting her. Well..I was not welcome at the funeral yesterday because the husband doesn't much like me. Since I refused to dishonor her memory by causing a scene..I didn't go. My contact there will tell me where she is buried, and I will wait and go say my goodbyes there.
It was a hard day today though. Worse I have experienced in a long time. Didn't sleep, couldn't eat.. I can fake happy or 'normal' I've gotten good at it. So most people probably didn't even realize. I am nowhere near ok, and I probably won't be for a bit.
I do want to thank those who have pm and texted me. They helped keep me sane, or at least a bit. You know who you are *hugs to them*
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