Ok, this might not make any sense or be coherent, but I'm really upset and frustrated today and I need to vent.
Things that have gone wrong today:
1. I was exiting a parking lot and so obviously I need to go over the sidewalk portion to get into traffic. I do this and then see a car coming that I didn't notice before so I stopped. At this moment, a bicycle (riding on the sidewalk) comes and has to go behind me as I am blocking the sidewalk. As he goes by he decides to yell at me (loud enough I could hear through my closed windows and over music) "Why are you on the fucking sidewalk? Fucking BITCH!" which super pisses me off because he shouldn't be riding his bicycle on the sidewalk either. So I rolled down my window and shouted "Fuck you cunt!" and drove off. I know I shouldn't have but it made me feel better to say something back because usually at work I have to be like "I'm sorry, want free food?"
2. I get home and my friend that lives here asks for a ride to school. I have kind of a weird situation because I live with my parents and this friend that I've had since high school lives here too. My parents sort of adopted him because his parents gave up. But since then he is 23 and lives here, no job, doesn't pay rent, doesn't pay anything, and my parents recently paid tuition for him to go to school. He asks me for a ride because the bus ride would take him 2 hours. I say no, because the time he has to go to school coincides with the time I have to go to school so in order for us both to get on time to two different schools would make it so that I am driving for two hours. He gets super pissed off and me and abusive with me because I don't want to do the exact thing he doesn't want to do. Either way he'll be on the road for 2 hours.
3. My teacher in the morning recently revealed to me that he is a super pervert. I emailed him about an assignment and this is part of what he wrote back to me:
"I look forward to seeing more of you ;-) (I think you know what I mean)"
This worried me but I decided he probably didn't mean it the way it came off and that he probably just meant seeing me in class more (I had missed a few classes), so I ignored it. Then came another e-mail from him advising me of my grade and then he entered this:
"You know I like you {my name} - I've enjoyed having you in classes. I enjoy your smiling participation, and your occasionally provocative attire ;-) I would like to have you leave me with good feelings and a decent grade. "
Now I'm stuck in this class that I have to take in order to graduate feeling really awkward. I'm really confused about the provocative attire thing too because I am always in jeans and a t-shirt and sometimes a jacket when it gets cold in the building. There is nothing revealing in my clothing and now I feel weird when I get dressed in the morning about being careful what I wear.
The worst part is when I talk to my mom about these things here was her response:
To issue number one: "Well, you shouldn't have been in the sidewalk, he was right."
#2: "Just leave the room." Me "I need to use the computer in here to submit my homework." Her "Do it later."
#3: She advised me not to tell anyone about it because "Life isn't fair."
Grrrrr I'm so freaking frustrated right now. I need hugs.
Things that have gone wrong today:
1. I was exiting a parking lot and so obviously I need to go over the sidewalk portion to get into traffic. I do this and then see a car coming that I didn't notice before so I stopped. At this moment, a bicycle (riding on the sidewalk) comes and has to go behind me as I am blocking the sidewalk. As he goes by he decides to yell at me (loud enough I could hear through my closed windows and over music) "Why are you on the fucking sidewalk? Fucking BITCH!" which super pisses me off because he shouldn't be riding his bicycle on the sidewalk either. So I rolled down my window and shouted "Fuck you cunt!" and drove off. I know I shouldn't have but it made me feel better to say something back because usually at work I have to be like "I'm sorry, want free food?"
2. I get home and my friend that lives here asks for a ride to school. I have kind of a weird situation because I live with my parents and this friend that I've had since high school lives here too. My parents sort of adopted him because his parents gave up. But since then he is 23 and lives here, no job, doesn't pay rent, doesn't pay anything, and my parents recently paid tuition for him to go to school. He asks me for a ride because the bus ride would take him 2 hours. I say no, because the time he has to go to school coincides with the time I have to go to school so in order for us both to get on time to two different schools would make it so that I am driving for two hours. He gets super pissed off and me and abusive with me because I don't want to do the exact thing he doesn't want to do. Either way he'll be on the road for 2 hours.
3. My teacher in the morning recently revealed to me that he is a super pervert. I emailed him about an assignment and this is part of what he wrote back to me:
"I look forward to seeing more of you ;-) (I think you know what I mean)"
This worried me but I decided he probably didn't mean it the way it came off and that he probably just meant seeing me in class more (I had missed a few classes), so I ignored it. Then came another e-mail from him advising me of my grade and then he entered this:
"You know I like you {my name} - I've enjoyed having you in classes. I enjoy your smiling participation, and your occasionally provocative attire ;-) I would like to have you leave me with good feelings and a decent grade. "
Now I'm stuck in this class that I have to take in order to graduate feeling really awkward. I'm really confused about the provocative attire thing too because I am always in jeans and a t-shirt and sometimes a jacket when it gets cold in the building. There is nothing revealing in my clothing and now I feel weird when I get dressed in the morning about being careful what I wear.
The worst part is when I talk to my mom about these things here was her response:
To issue number one: "Well, you shouldn't have been in the sidewalk, he was right."
#2: "Just leave the room." Me "I need to use the computer in here to submit my homework." Her "Do it later."
#3: She advised me not to tell anyone about it because "Life isn't fair."
Grrrrr I'm so freaking frustrated right now. I need hugs.
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