Not sure how to put this.

[Barracuda]

Dial 211 now. Most areas have a 211 line--it is an emergency line for information about shelters, food pantries, and other assistance in your area, and it is toll free. Hopefully, they have something that can help. Also, you might try taking out a title equity loan on your car if you have one that you own free and clear--this is helping me pay my rent right now until my first grants for school come in.

[RootedPhoenix]

So. I've got $200 to play for a $259 per week hotel room.

I need about 6 weeks before money from my mom will be here to help me.

I don't even know wtf...how the hell is this going to work?

[42_42_42]

I'm here for you.

[Seshat]

Take that $200 and use it to get to one of the offered couch spaces. Ideally one where the job market for someone of your skills is actually viable.

Start over, there.

[Barracuda]

Do you have a car with a free and clear title? Another option is a title loan or a title equity loan. Title loans are fast and dirty and have to be paid off within six months, usually at insane interest rates, but they can get you emergency cash. A title equity loan is like a mortgage on your car; I just took one out myself to pay living expenses while I try to get into school and get loans. They can have much longer terms and payments can be reasonable, about the same as car payments on a modest car, and would give you cash for rent. More importantly, they can be approved and have the money to you in as quick as a couple days. www.helpingloans.com is where I got my loan--if you own a car free and clear, check there.

[RootedPhoenix]

Trouble is, I don't own a car. I don't know what else I could use. A couple possessions spring to mind, but I...I don't know.

I'm working on a business loan that will help me pay for my needs also, but that'll take something like a month to make happen. But that one will have better interest rates, I'm sure of it.

[Cookie]

Phoenix, I'm so sorry. I just saw all of this. I have nothing more to offer than *hugs* and prayers. I understand being suicidal. That's my default mode these days. I also see a bunch of people gathering around you, albeit virtually, who care and who want to help you in very real ways. Please consider me among the ones who care and want to see you stay with us.