Though not good news. Doctor today gave the official verdict. Biopsy showed that it was indeed testicular cancer (this was suspected, but had to wait until they removed it and biopsied it for verification), and it was Malignant. Going the 30th to see if it was all removed or not, then have to go to a cancer specialist who will test for other cancers (to be on the safe side). It is good to finally know, and not just suspect..but I can tell you I am not in a good place right now.
I can't help but wonder what I've done that is so horrible that I've been saddled with such pain and problems. Diabetes, Nash, Cancer, Cirrhosis.. Never drank (besides an occasional drink hadn't had more then 5 beers in my entire lifetime up to age 31), no drugs..stood up for people who wouldn't/couldn't themselves..treated people better then I myself want to be treated..
I know, deep down, it is nothing I did..but that is cold comfort. For those of you with bigger burdens to carry you have nothing but my respect. Ok..done whinging for now.
I can't help but wonder what I've done that is so horrible that I've been saddled with such pain and problems. Diabetes, Nash, Cancer, Cirrhosis.. Never drank (besides an occasional drink hadn't had more then 5 beers in my entire lifetime up to age 31), no drugs..stood up for people who wouldn't/couldn't themselves..treated people better then I myself want to be treated..
I know, deep down, it is nothing I did..but that is cold comfort. For those of you with bigger burdens to carry you have nothing but my respect. Ok..done whinging for now.
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