Well, I had started orientation at a large hardware store last weekend... I went through orientation, I was SO excited and nervous to get on the phones!
So I Get on the phones... yeah, a few problems but I was catching most. I even wrote down notes to help me along.
On friday, something happened, I dont wanna talk about it, but it was trivial. BUT, in my nature, I had a panick attack and was sick, and couldnt go to work.
Then, I went in to work in a rather sour mood on saturday. On top of that, I had messed up my punches earlier that week, so I had to go get them fixed (And when you miss a punch you get a demerit point! I missed LOTS). And I also had a cold sore, so eating, drinking, and even talking on the phone (Which was my job) was hard.
So yeah, I was a little at ends at work, but I got it done.
Today, my friend who got me the job there IMed me, saying that people were teling her I had an 'attitude' and other troubling stuff.
Well, I lost it. I had another breakdown. I was crying at the computer, and even now, six hours later my heart is racing and I feel sick. I just dont know what to do.
The boss will talk to me on wednesday, when I go in next.
I'm just in a panick. I /know/ I'm going to break down in front of her... I need this job desperately. My part time job, which I was full time at till recently, doesnt pay enough to live comfortably. I /need/ this job. I am confused, baffled.. i know I was grouchy saturday but really....
Can they really judge me already in my first week?
God, I hate the world. I just can NEVER seem to keep a good paying job... and I've been jobhunting almost monthly since I came back to Calgary (september). I'mt ired of this. I'm sick of interview after interview. I LOVE working at this new job. Its fun, I can SIT DOWN and stuff....
But it seems I am cursed to NEVER keep a job I enjoy.
Why? What did I do to deserve this?
So I Get on the phones... yeah, a few problems but I was catching most. I even wrote down notes to help me along.
On friday, something happened, I dont wanna talk about it, but it was trivial. BUT, in my nature, I had a panick attack and was sick, and couldnt go to work.
Then, I went in to work in a rather sour mood on saturday. On top of that, I had messed up my punches earlier that week, so I had to go get them fixed (And when you miss a punch you get a demerit point! I missed LOTS). And I also had a cold sore, so eating, drinking, and even talking on the phone (Which was my job) was hard.
So yeah, I was a little at ends at work, but I got it done.
Today, my friend who got me the job there IMed me, saying that people were teling her I had an 'attitude' and other troubling stuff.
Well, I lost it. I had another breakdown. I was crying at the computer, and even now, six hours later my heart is racing and I feel sick. I just dont know what to do.
The boss will talk to me on wednesday, when I go in next.
I'm just in a panick. I /know/ I'm going to break down in front of her... I need this job desperately. My part time job, which I was full time at till recently, doesnt pay enough to live comfortably. I /need/ this job. I am confused, baffled.. i know I was grouchy saturday but really....
Can they really judge me already in my first week?
God, I hate the world. I just can NEVER seem to keep a good paying job... and I've been jobhunting almost monthly since I came back to Calgary (september). I'mt ired of this. I'm sick of interview after interview. I LOVE working at this new job. Its fun, I can SIT DOWN and stuff....
But it seems I am cursed to NEVER keep a job I enjoy.
Why? What did I do to deserve this?
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