I just need to vent so here goes:
Today is NOT a good day. Not at all. I'm on the verge of a) pulling my hair out , b)throwing some punches or c) banging my head against my desk until I pass out and get sent home (or to the hospital, that would work too). I have no idea what my problem is. I'm just really, really pissed. My boyfriend got his head bitten off this morning (for nothing the poor thing), everytime my boss says my name it gets harder for me not to strangle him and our S-L-O-W salesman (who I've posted about before) has been eating candy all day and only chooses to talk WHEN HIS MOUTH IS FULL!!! I cannot stand that! It's rude and disgusting. Or he'll ask me for a price of something... ok, stop being lazy, stop using being new as an excuse and find it yourself!!! I just want to be left alone. I want to curl up in bed, stuff my face into a pillow and scream until I can't scream anymore. I want to smoke a whole pack of cigarettes and drink a whole pint of vodka. I just don't want to feel this pissed off anymore!!! I don't even know why I feel this way. Maybe it's an add-up of things. Today is my mom's birthday and I can't be there or even see her for it... I live too far away. This past weekend, some kid committed suicide by sitting on the train tracks until the train came and every time I drive over the train tracks, I feel sick... and it's brought up feelings and memories of when someone close to me committed suicide. I don't know why or how they did it and I will never have the answers and I can't deal with that.
Anyway, it's been a rotten day and I just want it to be over. I want it to be tomorrow
Today is NOT a good day. Not at all. I'm on the verge of a) pulling my hair out , b)throwing some punches or c) banging my head against my desk until I pass out and get sent home (or to the hospital, that would work too). I have no idea what my problem is. I'm just really, really pissed. My boyfriend got his head bitten off this morning (for nothing the poor thing), everytime my boss says my name it gets harder for me not to strangle him and our S-L-O-W salesman (who I've posted about before) has been eating candy all day and only chooses to talk WHEN HIS MOUTH IS FULL!!! I cannot stand that! It's rude and disgusting. Or he'll ask me for a price of something... ok, stop being lazy, stop using being new as an excuse and find it yourself!!! I just want to be left alone. I want to curl up in bed, stuff my face into a pillow and scream until I can't scream anymore. I want to smoke a whole pack of cigarettes and drink a whole pint of vodka. I just don't want to feel this pissed off anymore!!! I don't even know why I feel this way. Maybe it's an add-up of things. Today is my mom's birthday and I can't be there or even see her for it... I live too far away. This past weekend, some kid committed suicide by sitting on the train tracks until the train came and every time I drive over the train tracks, I feel sick... and it's brought up feelings and memories of when someone close to me committed suicide. I don't know why or how they did it and I will never have the answers and I can't deal with that.
Anyway, it's been a rotten day and I just want it to be over. I want it to be tomorrow
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