I love my job, dont get me wrong. But after how badly I messedup on friday and how I KEEP messing up (apparently), its getting too stressful. I havent' cried so often since I worked under the Wal Monster (not Wal Mart at all, a casino chef I was terrorized by).
It was Mid Month, meaning we post things to head office as we go. (Basically I have to manually go through EACH and single transaction in Retail ANd service, go to them in the computer, click on a button that prints it at head office). THEN I have to enter them into the Cashout spreadsheet. THEN sort them.
On top of this I'm answering phones, getting change, getting bags, and booking in/out computers.
it was FRIDAY, and it was BUSY, we did EIGHTY transactions in retail alone. That's eighty transactions I have to visit manually in the computer, go to a special screen, click a button, then enter it in Cashout. PLUS do everything else.
Needless to say, I made a lot of mistakes. My boss who was supposed to go at 5:30 stayed until 6:30 helping find out what I did wrong that cashout didnt balance. And I wasnt' completely done Cashout till 7:30. By then I was just bawling my eyes out in frustration.
She told me I was no longer allowed to do Cashout, that I hvae to be retrained. Needless to say this is where I had actually started to cry. She called me not long after and told me not to cry, she's just trying to help but I really had to get cashout right, and when I said "I can't be making THAT many mistakes. what about all the times I get it right? " and she said I've been making mistakes a LOT (putting things in Retail instead of say, TPP or Corporate).
I just can't do it. I'm already dreading going into work tomorrow because that's when I have to sit and be treated like a child, go through each and single transaction of the day with her sitting beside me, reading over my shoulder, pointing out each mistake I make BEFORE I CAN CORRECT IT MSYELF. A lot of the time I pause to think and she assumes I dont know what to do next.
I really dont think I'm making as many mistakes as she says I am. She already told me the bank will shred some 10,000+ cheques because I didnt fill out a form right, AND told me I lost us 6000 dollars cause I filed another cheque wrong (Both completely untrue, especially the second.).
So I'm going to go back to the Casino, or somewhere else. This will likely be my last week here. I dont know.
I LOVE this job. I really do. but its stressing me out. I haven't felt so terrified about going into work since I was working under Wally in the casino. I haven't cried at the thought of going to work since then.
I seriously think there's something wrong with me. Mentally, in the brain, who knows? I got so upset on Friday doing cashout and then people talking at me on all sides, I LITERALLY flung my hands in the air twice (Think of how a child shakes their arms when they're upset), looking from person to person with a true look of
for a moment.
Damnit. I hate everything.
It was Mid Month, meaning we post things to head office as we go. (Basically I have to manually go through EACH and single transaction in Retail ANd service, go to them in the computer, click on a button that prints it at head office). THEN I have to enter them into the Cashout spreadsheet. THEN sort them.
On top of this I'm answering phones, getting change, getting bags, and booking in/out computers.
it was FRIDAY, and it was BUSY, we did EIGHTY transactions in retail alone. That's eighty transactions I have to visit manually in the computer, go to a special screen, click a button, then enter it in Cashout. PLUS do everything else.
Needless to say, I made a lot of mistakes. My boss who was supposed to go at 5:30 stayed until 6:30 helping find out what I did wrong that cashout didnt balance. And I wasnt' completely done Cashout till 7:30. By then I was just bawling my eyes out in frustration.
She told me I was no longer allowed to do Cashout, that I hvae to be retrained. Needless to say this is where I had actually started to cry. She called me not long after and told me not to cry, she's just trying to help but I really had to get cashout right, and when I said "I can't be making THAT many mistakes. what about all the times I get it right? " and she said I've been making mistakes a LOT (putting things in Retail instead of say, TPP or Corporate).
I just can't do it. I'm already dreading going into work tomorrow because that's when I have to sit and be treated like a child, go through each and single transaction of the day with her sitting beside me, reading over my shoulder, pointing out each mistake I make BEFORE I CAN CORRECT IT MSYELF. A lot of the time I pause to think and she assumes I dont know what to do next.
I really dont think I'm making as many mistakes as she says I am. She already told me the bank will shred some 10,000+ cheques because I didnt fill out a form right, AND told me I lost us 6000 dollars cause I filed another cheque wrong (Both completely untrue, especially the second.).
So I'm going to go back to the Casino, or somewhere else. This will likely be my last week here. I dont know.
I LOVE this job. I really do. but its stressing me out. I haven't felt so terrified about going into work since I was working under Wally in the casino. I haven't cried at the thought of going to work since then.
I seriously think there's something wrong with me. Mentally, in the brain, who knows? I got so upset on Friday doing cashout and then people talking at me on all sides, I LITERALLY flung my hands in the air twice (Think of how a child shakes their arms when they're upset), looking from person to person with a true look of

Damnit. I hate everything.
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