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The reason this will be long is I believe it needs a bit of background, and a lot of disclaimers. No, no cursing or such (and not BAD disclaimers.....anyhow..first a few disclaimers (there will be some at the bottom as well).
I do not condone violence at all, there is a bit inside, and sadly from myself (and another), but that will be explained.
Even though I shouldn't have, I felt horrible about it for months after.
Now the background.
When I was young, I had a bit of a temper. My older brother would get picked on and I would stand up for him against people even older then him. It got to the point where I would 'see red' and not remember anything, but I never lost a fight. Eventually, hating what I was..I took up meditation and am now known by quite a few around as the 'Gentle Giant' because I am a BIG person (now 50lbs less of a big person lol, but still big). In fact, there is very little that will make me angry (I can get a little mad, or upset, but it is near impossible to make me angry). Which leads us to this story.
I was working as a stock person on third shift (yes I've had a TON of jobs, most on third shift). I personally didn't have to deal with customers, which was great. It was right in the morning, right before we were getting ready to go home.
It was a bad night, the moon was out and all the crazies came out to play. "Jen" (named changed of course) was heading back to clock out. She came across a child throwing gallons of milk. Yes just getting them out of the cooler, and THROWING them.
Well she took the latest one away from the kid...and a man charged right up to her and started shouting about "Don't you dare touch my child!!" (only not quite that nice). I started to walk over, since usually when I get near..people calm down fast. They don't know I wouldn't normally hurt a fly.
I wasn't quite fast enough. The guy rared back, and hit 'Jen'..yes with a closed fist. Now there are only a few things that trigger anger in me any more..but a man hitting a woman or an adult hitting a child (especially with a fist) is among them. I went from "Gentle Giant" to "Wounded Grizzly". Now I did not hit the guy with my fist, but I did tackle him. If you've ever been tackled by a 305+ lb man, you know you feel it. I carry my weight very well, and am not as cumbersome as some might think.
Well, he stayed down until the cops arrived (though he tried his best not to)..but since I wasn't security at the time, or anything. I got in trouble also. You are not supposed to do things like that. No charges were pressed, luckily, but I was called into the office and let go. "Jen" was right there fighting for my job, but I knew I would be losing my job.
Now a few more 'disclaimers'
I know females don't always need protecting. I know some I would rather fight a real wounded grizzly then mess with. Doesn't stop my brain from flipping that switch if I see certain things happening in front of me. I've been slapped by females for stopping somebody from hitting them as well.
I am mostly a pacifist, I don't condone or like violence. I was harder on myself about losing it then anybody else was.
I would do it again, in the same situation. I have NO idea why "Jen" didn't press charges on that person..unless it was in exchange for them not pressing charges against me.
My size is usually enough for people not to mess with me, which is a good thing
I just can not believe a full grown man would ball up his fist and hit a perfect stranger for stopping a child from making a mess. Jen didn't hurt the child, heck she didn't even touch THEM, just the jug of milk they had. I felt horrible for months after, because I lost my temper..and when that happens people can get hurt. I don't enjoy the thought of hurting a fly, let alone a person.
I do not condone violence at all, there is a bit inside, and sadly from myself (and another), but that will be explained.
Even though I shouldn't have, I felt horrible about it for months after.
Now the background.
When I was young, I had a bit of a temper. My older brother would get picked on and I would stand up for him against people even older then him. It got to the point where I would 'see red' and not remember anything, but I never lost a fight. Eventually, hating what I was..I took up meditation and am now known by quite a few around as the 'Gentle Giant' because I am a BIG person (now 50lbs less of a big person lol, but still big). In fact, there is very little that will make me angry (I can get a little mad, or upset, but it is near impossible to make me angry). Which leads us to this story.
I was working as a stock person on third shift (yes I've had a TON of jobs, most on third shift). I personally didn't have to deal with customers, which was great. It was right in the morning, right before we were getting ready to go home.
It was a bad night, the moon was out and all the crazies came out to play. "Jen" (named changed of course) was heading back to clock out. She came across a child throwing gallons of milk. Yes just getting them out of the cooler, and THROWING them.
Well she took the latest one away from the kid...and a man charged right up to her and started shouting about "Don't you dare touch my child!!" (only not quite that nice). I started to walk over, since usually when I get near..people calm down fast. They don't know I wouldn't normally hurt a fly.
I wasn't quite fast enough. The guy rared back, and hit 'Jen'..yes with a closed fist. Now there are only a few things that trigger anger in me any more..but a man hitting a woman or an adult hitting a child (especially with a fist) is among them. I went from "Gentle Giant" to "Wounded Grizzly". Now I did not hit the guy with my fist, but I did tackle him. If you've ever been tackled by a 305+ lb man, you know you feel it. I carry my weight very well, and am not as cumbersome as some might think.
Well, he stayed down until the cops arrived (though he tried his best not to)..but since I wasn't security at the time, or anything. I got in trouble also. You are not supposed to do things like that. No charges were pressed, luckily, but I was called into the office and let go. "Jen" was right there fighting for my job, but I knew I would be losing my job.
Now a few more 'disclaimers'
I know females don't always need protecting. I know some I would rather fight a real wounded grizzly then mess with. Doesn't stop my brain from flipping that switch if I see certain things happening in front of me. I've been slapped by females for stopping somebody from hitting them as well.
I am mostly a pacifist, I don't condone or like violence. I was harder on myself about losing it then anybody else was.
I would do it again, in the same situation. I have NO idea why "Jen" didn't press charges on that person..unless it was in exchange for them not pressing charges against me.
My size is usually enough for people not to mess with me, which is a good thing
I just can not believe a full grown man would ball up his fist and hit a perfect stranger for stopping a child from making a mess. Jen didn't hurt the child, heck she didn't even touch THEM, just the jug of milk they had. I felt horrible for months after, because I lost my temper..and when that happens people can get hurt. I don't enjoy the thought of hurting a fly, let alone a person.
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